Ayah ....

Inna lillahi wa inna  ‘ilaihi raji’un …. 


Sesungguhnya kita milik Allah & kepadaNya kita kembali… That’s the reality… 

Ayah meninggal dunia at +-4.00am on 9 June 2011. Mase tu, only mak was with him … Bende dah nak jadi... Mak tertidur, sblum tu, mak ngaji by his side sampai close to 1am, she fell asleep . Bangun for sahur, mak tengok dada Ayah dah x berombak… Mak x sure … Seluruh badan still panas lagi, cuma muka dia aje yng sejuk. Less than 10 minutes, my brother & wife came …. He confirm to mak that Ayah da x de… I got the call @ 4.40am…

 Ustadz datang umah at +- 6.30am, mak cakap kat ustadz “terpulang kat ustadz to uruskan”… So, sume was arranged by him and his team. We sampai Ipoh 9.07am, ayah tengah dimandikan, 9.45am van jenazah sampai. By 11.00 am, semua dah selesai. Ahamdulillah… lancar dan cepat urusan ayah. Mase ni barulah, adik adik mak / ayah yang jauh baru sampai. Tak sangka cepat sangat urusannya. Yang penting, cepat kebumikan ayah… Itu yang dia minta …

Ayah disahkan ngidap Alzheimer Disease (=Nyanyuk) in Nov 2009. Sedikit info on Alzheimer Disease for uols :-

Alzheimer's disease (AD) is the most common form of dementia among older people. Dementia is a brain disorder that seriously affect a person's ability to carry out daily activities. AD begins slowly, first, it involves the parts of the brain that control thought, memory and language. People with AD may have trouble remembering things that happened recently or names of people they know.

In AD, over time, symptoms get worse. People may not recognize family members or have trouble speaking, reading or writing. They may forget how to brush their teeth or comb their hair. Later on, they may become anxious or aggressive, or wander away from home. Eventually, they need total care. This can cause great stress for family members who must care for them.  AD usually begins after age 60. The risk goes up as you get older. Your risk is also higher if a family member has had the disease.

No treatment can stop the disease. However, some drugs may help keep symptoms from getting worse for a limited time.

Source from : NIH National Instute of Health, US

Ayah dari dulu lagi, selalu lupa. Lupa kat mana kunci keta, mana cermin mata, mane jam dia… biasela kan, kite ynag muda lagi ni pun slalu lupa gak. But, when dia lupa jalan nak balik umah dari surau tu, kami masih x perasan lagi … Jalan nak datang ke rumah kami di Puchong ni  pun dia jadi x sure, kami masih x perasan. Lepas tu, dia stat suka menyendiri. X nak pegi surau. Bila org datang umah pun, dia macam x nak jumpe orang, Kalau orang datang umah sembang-sembang pun, dia diam senyum aje… tak join sgt in the conversation. Bila dia join orang sembang lak, topic lain. Orang citer pasal lain, dia citer lain. Dia suka cakap about cerita lame…. Mase dia muda, mase kitaorng kecik, mase Arwah Opah dulu … Kami masih x perasan … Sampai la dia accident in Nov 2009. Doctor confirmed that Ayah ade Alzheimer. Otak Ayah dah kecut. He cannot even read. Hari ape pun dia x tau …

So, Ayah cannot be out of sight lagi dah. Both Ayah n Mak stat round umah kami … 2/3 bulan umah abang I (GG), then, umah I, pastu, umah adik lak. On 21^st March 2011, Ayah jatuh lagi… Sebelum ni ade gak jatuh ... sbab jalan da x berape stable, tapi ok jer. Lepas jatuh kali ni, langsung x boleh berjalan dah. Dah terbaring jer, duduk pun x boleh. Asyik tidur aje… Makan pun da x berape nak. Sebelum ni, asyik nak makan jer. Baru jer 15minit makan, dia kate x makan lagi... Pantang tengok bebudak ni makan, dia mesti nak... Bila time makan, Mak akan kejutkan Ayah… makan bubur nasi jer.Stat pakai pampers. Cakap pun da x berape nak faham. Tapi, can still kenal kami ni siape, this happen at my sister’s house in Kinrara.Then, my uncle nasihat to bawak Ayah balik Ipoh. So, GG (abang I) came and bawak Ayah to his house. Ayah condition deteriorated, belakang dia dah stat luka-luka. Nak makan pun dah x tahu… Dia x tahu nak telan… Nak suap 1 mangkuk kecik bubur nasi pun sampai almost one hour. Tidur aje, kalau dia bukak mate pun, macam blurr ajer, dah x kenal orang dah...

After one month kat umah GG, Mak cakap, nak balik umah sendiri. So, Sunday 5^th June 2011, we took Ayah n Mak balik umah mak. 3 days kat umah …. Thursday, 9^th June 2011, +- 4.00 am, .... Ayah kembali ke rahmahtullah .......

Makan after majlis tahlil, Alhamdullilah, ramai yang datang

Last family trip we went together at Teluk Rubiah, Lumut.

Raya

Celebrating his 69th birthday together wif  Syasya September 2010.... mase ni da x ok, Tangan pun terketar2

Ayah dolu-dolu, mase zaman kecik2, saaangat garang orangnye. Tak brani nak berseloroh dengannya. Dia seorang guru. Guru Ilmu Hisab & guru disiplin … tuu sebab garang saangat. Pernah sekali dulu, I was in Darjah 4 kut, Ayah lagekan kepala kami tiga beradik sebab buat bising …. Dia tengah tidur, kami buat bising, mak tak de, sebab dia ngajo belah petang. Dia bangun dgn muka yg sangat marah terus suruh kitaorang beratur depan dia, pastu lagekan kepala kami …. I yang paling sakit sebaaab … I diri kat tengah, so dua-dua belah kena… Sekarang ingat balik tergelak pun ade…. Pernah la jugak kena pukul dgn getah paip / tali pinggang / rotan … x payah cakapla…

Ecem kan Ayah  dolu dolu .. Kalah Jefri Zain...

Bila da masuk masuk zaman sekolah menengah, our relationship da ok sket … Da x garang langsung… Dia bagi nasihat aje … Mase tu, I masuk sekolah asrama kat Negri 9, 1^st year tu almost every month datang visit. Datang on Saturday around 2pm, tidur one night kat umah my uncle, Sunday by 6pm anto balik tu asrama, pastu trus balik Ipoh. Esok pagi ngajo. Dolu dolu mana ade hiway lagi. So Ipoh- Seremban was like 5/6 hours drive. Nak balik for break lagila … I suruh dia sampai by 2pm on Friday, so that after sekolah, boleh trus balik … x nak lambat … Ayah amek MC datang amek I and my frenz yng duk kat Ipoh skali… Sekarang da jadi parents, baru tau.

My daughter is the 1^st cucu in the family. Excited sangat dia. But, Kakak was born pre-mature. 8 bulan, songsang, but Alhamdulillah secara normal. Doctor sempat pusing, guna forcep, kuar bontot dulu. Sakit stat datang kul 9 malam (ingat lagi … sebab baru duduk nak tengok majalah3 by Wan Zaleha Radzi). Trus kol mak, mase nak kuar umah to Klinik Bersalin Danau Kota, dalam kul 12 lebih tengah malam, selisih ngan keta Ayah. Berhenti tgah jalan, mak naek keta skali ngan kitaorang. Bayangkan, macamana Ayah bawak keta malam tu … mase tu hiway siap sampai Tanjung Malim aje. Unfortunately, my baby, sebabkan dia tu premature, ade masalah sket. Dia x leh berak… so kena refer to GH. Duk kat GH almost 2 weeks. Pastu, Kakak dibenarkan keluar, tapi kena wat checkup every week kat GH. So, balik Ipoh berpantang, every week ulang alik GH, Ayah yang bawakan, sebab Mr Asben working kat KL. Tu la dia… Ayah n Mak yng lebih jage cucu sulung dia ni. Kalau boleh nyamuk pun x leh gigit. All my 3 girls dijaga oleh Ayah n Mak, bila dah sampai 4 tawon, I bawak balik KL, tadika n sekolah kat cni…

Tengok tu... terbongkang dua-dua lepas  kakak tido. Mase tu tgh dalam pantang lagi

Ayah at his tuisyen centre, badan sedap, mantap lagi.

Ayah wif my 3rd baby ... Badan dah mula kecut.

Ayah n mak  buat tuisyen kat umah, so mostly anak2 kat area rumah tu, Ayah n Makla yng ngajar… So ramai yng kenal Ayah. Surau kat situ pun, Ayah is among the pioneer people yg mengusahakan… Jarang yg  Ayah x hadir utuk aktiviti surau. Cuma last 3 years ni aje…

Tak tertulis ape yng telah Ayah lakukan sepanjang hayat dia…. Tak terbalas jasa Ayah … Thank you Ayah. Terima kasih untuk segalanya…….

Al-Fatihah.....